Writer's Block

I began a post about the pandemic going on, but every time I sit down to write it, my thoughts go a million different directions and the words are not coming out the way I want them to. So I've put that on hold for now. One of the things I've been really wanting to do during all this time I have trapped indoors is to write a whole lot more. So far I'm failing. I have ideas about what I want to write about, but the normal flow I have is all dammed up. It's partially because I'm trying to force ideas and make them come out the way I want them. Truth is, that doesn't work for me. Most of the works I'm proud of were created like this: 1) I got inspiration off one little thing. 2) I sat down and began to write, letting my mind flow. 3) I didn't stop to correct anything. I just kept writing until I felt the piece was complete. 4) Once the piece was complete, I did a once over to see if anything needed corrected or changed. I ended up writing these pieces in 10 minutes or less. One flow of thought. No stopping. Some have gotten minor edits over time, but they still amaze me to this day how I ever wrote them.

I've had the urges to write. Not necessarily blog posts, but poems, prose, and even short stories. I have the time to do all of that. But the writer's block is too real. And on a side note, not all of my ideas turn into these 1 flow of thought instant pieces. I have a good number of pieces that I started that have never been finished. Whenever I go back to them, the thought I had for them is gone. I try to finish them, but it seems forced. So I don't.

Some of you who've been reading my stuff for years may wonder how then I managed to write a story that I posted weekly on facebook back in 2009-2012 that ended up being 153 word document pages long. It's because I got the inspiration off something small, saw the beginning, middle, and end in my mind, and all I had to do was fill in the bits. But the biggest factor was that I posted a teaser on facebook and the response was great for me to continue. I was reaching my tag limit of readers each week and some would give me a hard time if I forgot to tag them. Yes there were points where I had to think how I was going to connect the dots, but it was the interest that drove me to continue. At the time and with my amateur writing, it was good. But all the times I go back to try and edit it, I've come to the conclusion that it's better left as it is because to make it to the standard I'd want it today, I'd have to re-write most of it. Maybe I'll write an actual, more sound book one day.

In the meantime, I'm going to try to write more and put stuff out there. Most individual pieces will end up on facebook as that's a bit bigger of a platform than I have here. So keep an eye out. There may also be more blog posts coming than normal. I also have a third idea I may try, but we'll see. Stay safe and healthy y'all.